Look At The Starrs

Life! ((AH))

Tue, 23 May 2006 12:04:10 GMT

ok so i havnt typed about life since january!!!! this is insane!! BUt thats ok, im here to update you all know! haha! Well the first thing that comes to mind is that schools almost out, which just seems to put a HUGE smile on my face! Also elections are today & tomorrow, im nervous as hell.. seeing im runing 4 calls president!!!! against 4 other people, which f u ask me is insane! But hey, i cant wait to see who wins. Ohh and softball started, as excepted, and yes im basically kicking ass, on jv!! yeah i know im pissed to ive never wanted to punch a coach b4, well bsides then. But im kicking ass on JV , ive pitched some pretty good no hitters, and 1 perfect game!! And now im sitting here in teachers aid supposidly typing up tests, when i thought of all of my loyal fans that i havnt talked to in forever!! haha, well maybe not fans. hehe. But ill keep you updated i promise... and remember

ITS ALMOST SUMMER!!! :) hehe.

(( Vote 4 steff gauquier as junior clas president!! ))

Love Always & Forever,
Completly Steff.

Life... Updated..

Fri, 27 Jan 2006 18:34:37 GMT

So i havnt seen u all in a long time... well take that back havnt typed to u all in a long time.. having iwthdrawls?? lol.

didnt think so.

So. wensday was my 16th birthday IM 16! im sooo excited! i had a killer suprise sweet 16, and i was surpised! my friends totally came through on that whole movie night & craft fair shit i was conviced about. ha. it was awsome

and on the bad new im out for the season but come back 3 days b4 softball start! im basically cant wait! lol.

well im gonna go party b4 the game ha! lol. ill ttyl.

Love Always & Forever...
♥ Completly Steff ♥

My Life...

Sat, 31 Dec 2005 02:19:00 GMT

Hey People.. Long time no talks..

So basically yes steffs love life still suxs. actually i take that back. steff doesnt even have a love life, i think its more of a i hate not having one life!! So yeah, basically...

Ive begun to realize that life can go on, just not as good as u once imagined. Im thinking that yes, i can look at u and picture myself with u but mayb u can c that as clear as i can. Maybe ur just gay?? No im totally jk. Maybe its me, maybe im not as good as ppl think, i mean i dont no by now its gotta b somthing than what were thinking.. somthing then whats on the surface its gotta b deep.

Who Knows?

So yeah, other than that ive been out of basketball for 2 weeks!! Im going crazy!sitting on the bench watch ppl go in when normally he would call mout my name, then get that oppurtunity to show me up and fuck it up instead! to watch ppl not try at all and have no heart! GOD, i dont get it! when i get back im so gonna rip that gym up!!lol.

Well im gonna go back to my life.

♥ Love Always & Forever♥
...Completly Steff

Count Downs...

Fri, 23 Dec 2005 14:58:55 GMT

Basically cant wait.

Christmas in 2 days!
New Years In 8 Days!
My Sweet in 33 Days.
And i can play BASAKETBALL in 10 days!

:-*

My Life... SUXS

Sun, 18 Dec 2005 15:14:19 GMT

Ok i hate guys soooo much. Im sooo sick of not having anyone around. To hold me when i get cold, to make me happy when im sad, to chill with when im complelty bored, to tell me they love me when i feel its gone and excepts me when im a total goon. Im so sick of feeling like a flippin loser because im the only one that doesnt have that person and probably will b the person who doesnt have a date to prom bcause that would b the way my life goes. IDK im just sick of nothing going right....

:(

Love Always & Forever
...Completly Steff...

My Life...

Sun, 11 Dec 2005 00:36:46 GMT

Ha. Everything was great. Yesterday we had a snowday. pretty sweet and then i went + chilled out with the tuftenborians for taylors going away party.. God im gonna miss him sooo much! Neways today i used a whole camera full of me..:) bcuz i want to totally change my myspace pics.. haha. great pics now theyve just got to get developed!... well morrow i have practice and ccd. then school all week. be back in after taylor moves, next weekend. i dont no if i can do this.....

Love Always & Forever,
♥ Completly Steff ♥

My life

Sat, 10 Dec 2005 05:12:38 GMT

~~ The best of times with the friends i'll never forget ~~

*Taylor, ill miss u soo much! U have no idea!.

Love Always & Forever,
♥ Complelty Steff ♥

My life...

Wed, 30 Nov 2005 20:22:04 GMT

hey its me again! yeahh. i know. im happy to write again. yes again about my wonderful, but broring life!

We had our first basketball game last night vs. laconia and yup..... WE WON!! omg i was sooooo excited until i woke up this mornign and was soooo tired cuz we were out late last night! uhh but it was worth it... the firsat time we've beat them at their court in 4-5 years, plus its were my coach graduated and omg it was great!!! i loved it.

Ha, nothing with friends has changed but some other people have. our bball team at first was distant but grew closer! were all like tight now and its a ball! As for my other friends drama never stops. but im beguining to think that it just makes my life more interesting! im loving it actually. Which i know sounds weird cuz i absolutly hate drama but it just amuses me more! The fun i have watching my friends fight is unimaginable! lol.. no im totally just joking!!!!m

But in reality the fighting and shit is coming to a stop and its getting better.. but u know what i think it gives me somthing to do, mend relationships, basically this is "how we do..". lol. Which brings me to my next subject..... mending relationships, how came i can do that with other people and i can put people together that stay together and stuff like that but when it comes tome... i always! end up crying on the floor? idk it just makes no sence and its starting to bug me!

Im gonna go get treated so mayb one day of my life my hip will feel normal! Ill keep intouch and much muahs!

Love Always & Forever,
&hearts: Completly Steff ♥

My Life...

Tue, 22 Nov 2005 17:43:39 GMT

Yup. Its my life journals again. My comps going crazy, as always and i cant get on line alot nemore, but its being fixed and that will all hopefuly change.

Lifes been pretty confusing and nothings going amazing, ive made Varsity basketball and i got the coachs award in volleyball. Nothing great but things thayt have gone on. Mom and dad are thinking about moving agaoin and its not to bad this time. Nothing great has come up that they've look ed at but u know, who knows it could happen. Xtreme split up and i might b going to Nor'Easters. Nothing great, nothing great at all but u know its a team. A place for me to pitch all the time , where i can only get better! No way i can get worse, unless they mess around with me. Whcih wont happen! Scools still hectic. Freidns are in fights BIG fights. I hate it when people cant c whats roight in fornt of there faces. U know, like when theyre being repeadly hurt but still cant c it. errr it drives me crazy! I never say enthing to avoid this little thing normal ppl call drama, but sometimes things need to b brought up. Which is y im glad i have friends like Kira. i love her, she knows how to fix things. Its horrible bcuz i know what my friends doing is wrong and were helping her but yet its just not seeming to go away. Its kinda like this little obsession that she just wont let go out, but yet we all know that she needs to, EVEN HER! but yet she cant. All but were working on that one. And it can only get better.

For me, nothing has happened. Ive learned that ur horoscope is never right and u can never depend on what u deserve to happen to happen. It just wikll enevr work like that, well at least not for me that is. Things that u woish for on a star wont come true, this that u close ur eyes and say while eating a floed potato chip just wouldnt come true. YEah, it suxs but its life, it bites. Nothings ever gonna go g-r-e-a-t- great for me and ive kinda excepted that. and ive got to tell u, we've made the best out of it!

So as u can tell all is normal --> computers broken, looking for houses, on honroroll in highschool, playing sports, still single. Nothings really truelly changed. Except fot he fact that my attitude on shit thats happened and whats going to happenhas changed, greatly changed. But really, In the last couple of weeks and months of my life ive only learned like nothing at all but one thing, mayb the one thing that will stick with me through life....
"Dont worry about what wont happen or what will happen. Dont worry about what could happen or what should happen, what u deserve and what u dont deserve. Worry about what u will do with ur life when ur older. What ull do after all the drama in high school and all the people thayt u hate now. Dont worry about what will happen o them and what u can do to embarace them, worry baout what u can do to make urself look better and put them down, leaving highschool....wishing they were u."-ME.

So, peopole email me anytime. Ill b sitting here, infront of the broken, being fixed omputer on in the school libabry just waititing.

...My Life...

Love Always,
♥ Complelty Steff♥

PreHomecoming.

Sat, 22 Oct 2005 15:56:38 GMT

Hey everyone! Homecomings tonight. Im like basically totally syked!!!

Going to kiras before and after, wich is going to b a blast, i flippin love that girl! Umm yeah the dance will b fulled with drama like it always is but i hope i dance with him!!

♥ Love Always ♥
... Compelty Steff

Ha.

Mon, 10 Oct 2005 20:59:51 GMT

My Therory of Life:
If u get sooo depressed you can become unbeleivably happy.

~If u can get so tired that u become unbeleivably hyper y cant it work for ur emotions to. I beleive that i can. I think thats whats happened to me. Idk Y but i really think its happeneing. Which basically suxs. But for the moment is a frippin ball!~

♥ Love Always ♥
... Complelty Steff

Look Inside

Sat, 08 Oct 2005 03:31:19 GMT

iif you look iinsiide a giirl's
[~*.H - e - a - R - t.*~]
You'd see how much she
::'ReaLLy':: criiEs
You'll fiind secrests hiidden,
Best friiends, and liies
.buT. whaT .y0u`LL . See . thA.Most .
iis how [ HarD ] iit iis
to stay [(strOng)]
wen -:|:-nothiing-:|:- iis riight
nd' *everythiing* iis wrong

~ Ha. its tru, who knows what to do when everything uve ever wanted gets further and further away till u cant even c it anymore.~

♥ Love Always ♥
...Complelty Steff

my life

Sun, 02 Oct 2005 16:39:32 GMT

my life is like a soap opera...with out the love. the much deserve~needed love.

Wow is that bad if thats 60000+% true? Theres so mych drama and confusion in my life its pathetic. iI bet its just because people come to me to fix everything and for some extra info on people, which by the way i love! I love being known as the ossiper or the drama specailist bcuz people know that i wouldnt say nething u want me to and they know that i care. i flipping rocks. And ont op of it i know the most about everyones life. but inreturn my life becomes pure chaos. But u know thats how i roll. LOl.

but then i dont get it. I can fix people problem with otu a thought or point to ponder adn thats it, but with my life i sux! I think its bcuz im so scared or rejection that i basically live in a box. which let me tell u the tapes coming off. I really dont care nemore. Im so sick of being scared that i could care less. If u dont like me, Fuck u! If u do, i love u 2! haha. And for the all those people who r like wow she must have no self respect thats totally wrong. U have to have self respect to come out of the box (not that way!) I mean i used to wanta b friends with all u stuck up backstabbing bitches and now ive realized that HA my friends and life is so much better. i dont everything handed to me and when i get it it feels that much better. I never go out with anyone but once i do i bet my relation will b better than ur bcuz i want it more.

Ha to all u people. Im better. ~In my mind~.... haha
JK im not that stuck up at all!

♥ Love Always ♥
...Completly Steff

Sun, 18 Sep 2005 02:44:31 GMT

Life was great! We won our game, the conversation of my dreams...

..But then a little birdy came down from the sky, throw a pebble at my head and said "Steff its time to come back to reality!"
While i reply "Reality Suxs."

♥ Love Always ♥
...Steff

Shopping!

Mon, 05 Sep 2005 22:56:20 GMT

Today i went shopping and got...

Jeans From PacSun, 2 Shirts from OldNavy, Burkenstalks, Dressshoes, Nail Thingy, Bras, TrackJacket from OldNavy.. and i beleive thats it!

It was basically a blast with my mom today!

Ohh yeah, UNH Game morrow, cants wait... The 1st game Weds. at Oyster River..
WiSh Us LuCk!!!

♥ Love Always ♥
...Completly Steff

Great Song

Sun, 04 Sep 2005 15:50:58 GMT

"Because Of You"- Kelly Clarkson

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

Some Recent Information...

Sat, 03 Sep 2005 01:00:25 GMT

Hey.. School started yesterday. Funtimes... NOT!!

First of all i walked into geometry class and made a complete idoit out of myslef in the first like 20 seconds of being therebut you know it was pretty cool. I have like 20 freshmen and a junoir. But i also have kira, taylor, Jordan, Greg, Billy, Emrison, Felica, Justin and ... i think thats it, but ill take it! Then walking into Biology basically sucked!! No ones in there i have like amanda... and like jenna... and thats like it!! It totally bites! then going to English is a nice change from Biology (fullers awsome, class Sucks. I love the teacher and the kids!! It rocks, same with next class. American Gov't. Yeah HATE THE GOVERMENT but u know the class is awsome! Then ending my day off with french is like hell!! It suxs. Ohh yeah i cant forget! I have 2nd lunch, lets just say, once again. taht it basically suxs!!

Volleyball Thrusday night was less then fun. iit was like a bitch fest with a great meeting at the end. Everyone was in bad moods and didnt wanta b there. And of course took it out on everyone else! Like they always do. So at the end we got this great! lectur about how it needs to stop, which it did. So whatever.

Ohh yeah and my names spelt right on my uniform!! It rocks! Im so proud of manning! lol. Anf theyre pretty sick, ull have to come to a game to c them! u should come, our spandex r pretty sick, like boyshorts or booty short! It kidna suxs but u know. Volleyballs going to the UNH game on tuesday, cant wait! ITs gonna rck and we get out Pinkham shirts, or the shirts that pinkham got./ordered for us.. theyre pretty sweet!
**The sickest part of our uniform is the socks! TIEDIE!!!!! how sick is that! Ohh yeah, theyre pretty sick!**

Well yeah one last bite of info b4 i go off to bed for the night... Lee made the winning goal in her feild hockey game.. IM SO PROUD OF HER!!

GOOD JOB LEE!!!

Love ya and good night!!

♥ Love Always ♥
...Complely Steff

Mon, 29 Aug 2005 15:21:57 GMT

I went to lees agan yesterday. We had some fun, haha. We watched the exerdist, played cards, talkied about chris, painted kevins nails, and.... stuff. ha.

This whole thing with ppl is really starting to piss me off. I thought that i was agreeing with my friend but i have no idea. Now that i have new evidence of somthing, im really confused. I have no idea what to think. Should i tell my friend so she knows whats really going on even though it will kill her or should i just let her be and leave her heart in one peice?? Im so confused!

...Signed utterlyconfused

♥Love Always &eahrts;
... Completly Steff

A Day In The Life Of Me....

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 15:20:29 GMT

Yesterday... wow interesting day!

We had our round robin till about 1 or so. We did pretty good for first time out. We beat Kennet i think everytime but Belmont kick our ass... damn they r crazy good! Yeah but after not having a ride home we went to go buig Kathy. And Kathy loves me so she said shed give me a ride home.But instead we went to morisseys and got icecream sundaes! They were really good. After that we went to lees house for like 2 minutes b4 going to taylors 4 like an hour. After leaving there we went back to leave once more to get some food for us bcuz Kathy and Glenn were leaving. On the way HAHA we picked up Taylor..actually we took taylor hostage. It was fun. Once we got back we watched half-baked! Funnyass movie B4 matt attacked me with a spider and mad me cry!! B4 they got home we walked taylor home.. in the pitch black bcuz matt took the flash light away and ranoff.. dickward. lol. But it was fun and the sky was so pretty!!

They i went home and went to bed. Tonight i go back to lee and watch movies with the tuftenborians.. i cant wait... haha :)

♥ Love Always ♥
...Completly Steff

Interesting Life I Lead...

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 18:58:44 GMT

Hey people. Just got back from a week with Shelly.. fun fun times!

FYI: Shellys getting a new car!! now more pimp wagon..:( depressing i know i know but this is sweeter. A 95' Dodge Stratus. Sliver 95' Dodge Stratus.. yes we know PIMPIN'.....

Oh yeah and Kyles brother died last night in a bike accident. I cant say i know how he feels cuz hes right, i dont but i feel so bad for him. I know how close they were and i feel horrible!! I wish there wass nething i could do.. and if there is,Kyle just let me know.

Volleyball Round Robin Morrow. Cant wait gonna b a great time! Syked... lol
1st volleyball scrimage: Monday vs. Kennet, kick Ass!! lol.. then another one on wednesday! vs kennet again.. kick ass once more!!

School starts on Thursday.. but i go back on wednesday 4 freshmen orinatation.. 4/6hrs of community service and im all set! lol..

Well im gonna go..nothing more to say,

EXCEPT...
...KiNgSwOoD VaRsItY vOlLeYbAlL #32... :):):):):)

♥ Love Always ♥
...Completly Steff

Rainy Days

Sat, 20 Aug 2005 22:18:46 GMT

Rainy Days....
...Sucks!!

...&heartsLove Always♥
Completly Steff

My Life

Sat, 20 Aug 2005 02:10:33 GMT

Hello Again!

WEll i beleive the last time i checked in was before volleyball tryouts. Which is crazy! Since so much has happened since then. Well of course volleyball started! Varsity player, thank u very much. And this is only my second year on the court! Im so syked to b playing all varsity sports this year, hopefully!Also i got my hair dyed. Dru highlighted it blonde and it looks AWSOME!! I love it. Ohh also i cut it but thats ok. but the best thing is that chris noticed it was straigh, not the cut or color by himslf.. but the straighteness!.. crazy guy that christopher is! But thats ok we love him. Also me and shelly had fun with square ice cream!.. and the fricken football players!! didnt have practice today when we had it, which means they didnt hahve doubles today... slackers!!lol, yeah right!

Well i think im gonna get back to my Nsync now. yeah im the loser that still LOVES Nsync.. u best beleive it!

...♥ Love Always ♥
Completly Steff

Greatness

Tue, 16 Aug 2005 03:06:25 GMT

hypernss is like being drunk u regret wat u did the night b 4...the only prob is is that we have never been drunk- Lindsay..hahha

Except we have way 2 much fun for regret!!-steff

Funtimes ..

♥ Love Always ♥
...Comppltly Steff

Ps. casey.. dont b scared we love ya!

Yesterday

Sun, 14 Aug 2005 16:41:25 GMT

Hey people..

Yesterday was so fun! i went down to dover for jenjens 3rd birthday! we had a ball throwing.. wait no pegging the water balls at coach. But ive got to say he had a wonderful time doing the say at us. After that we just hung out and put makeup on sara and we broke jodi out of her scareness of eyeliner!! After a while of hanging out we ate pizza and went bowling. I BET U ALL!!! haha. ya right! I suck at bowling, but i still bet them.. :)!After bowling we danced and danced around the bowling alley for like 20 minutes and ppl were looking at us with the funniest faces. Like when Jodi did the worm. classic! Ohh yeah we picked up Michlle b4 bowling. lol. The movie was the worst i say!. We went to c Charlie and the Choclate factory.. good movies.. bad memories! We were joking around and we were gonna give michelle TURNED OFF CELL PHONE number to a bunch of guyz.. but they turned it around and gave them my REAL NUMBER!! It was great. Ohh and we got to meet Robbie i think his namew as ... :)

Ahh after the movie it was like 1:30 when i got home but great great times!! cant wait to hang with them again..

Volleyball starts tomorrow.. cant wait! So syked!!

♥ Love Always ♥
... Completly Steff

Jordans Sweet

Thu, 11 Aug 2005 22:45:55 GMT

Haha! Hey people. taday was jordans sweet 16 birthday party. we had a blast!

At first when kate+i were at her house we were all kind of dreading it... but once ppl started ariving we got excited! I amazed taylor with how long i can tred water..(by the time i was done amazing i was sore!) i treaded for like and hour straight. The we took a pic and went in. When we went for cake jordan blew out her candles and went over to talk to her grandparents.. And of course i had to do it! I walked up and said "Jordan i really love you, happy sweet 16th-"and teh cake went into her face! It was great. she had no idea what was comming.

After that we just chilled out and talked and stuff. before we knew it, it was 5 and we werea ll leaving. It was a bunch of fun !And know im here talking to the computer unbeleivably bored!

And thats my dad...

♥ Love Always ♥
... Completly Steff